Open minded

James Jean - Hive

Being open minded is not innate in me, it is something I have to work on and force out. It is rather natural to behave, act and think in a similar fashion every day, as I have general models to follow in almost any context, and because I'm both familiar with the execution of these models as well as their repercussions. Autopilot is mostly engaged, and I find that trailing along blindly generally leaves me content and filled with a common handful of experiences. But then there is this other ability that is innate; curiosity. Curiosity is one of my most rewarding traits, as it gives me the courage to master challenges, to best my fears and to overcome obstacles. Curiosity has taught me to think positively, as it has time and again proven that there are multiple ways one can go, several right answers to any riddle and a way out of almost any situation. You don't even have to know where to look, you simply have to remember that you can look for an alternative, and it will often present itself.

Curiosity lets me break out of habits and out of my own way of being. Without it, I wouldn't have tried new food, finding flavors I never knew I'd love. I wouldn't have checked out new music, finding genres I never knew could make me dance the way they do. I wouldn't have experimented with a behavioral variety towards new people, finding out how I best enjoy myself and in what company and context I feel serenity, exhilaration, annoyance, carelessness or excitement. Being curious is to me all about discovering new sides to myself and daring to embrace them, if only for a second, to know how it feels and to understand the possibility of this being a natural part of me. Truthfully, you can only have a hunch about whether or not you'll like something until you actually try it. Only then will you know if it is for you or not, and so you don't really have a choice in the matter, other than to go for it and hope for the best. Worst thing that can happen is that you have a bad experience, but even then I find it to be worth it as I can be honest in saying I know that this in particular is not for me, at least not in this given context.

Where it gets complicated is when there are other emotions in the equation, other than the fear of simply not liking the experience at hand. Getting stung on a personal level is probably the biggest qualm for most of us, and I find this to be the toughest bubble to burst with curiosity alone. Exposing a desire to befriend someone or to reveal certain emotions towards a person can be daunting at best, as it is required that the feelings are mutual for them to prosper. This is by far the most exciting form of curiosity; that which is focused on an individual. Simply because nothing ever gets more complex and interesting than the entirety of a person, and you get to discover whether this certain kind of person is a good fit for you, and maybe even understand why or why not. The problem with such curiosity is the fear of losing the opportunity to discover what this person is all about, as an aggressive or even a passive approach could turn people away. How you should go about to sate your curiosity will have to differ based on any number of factors, ranging from your given relationship, your genders, your common network and naturally, both your personalities. And then things get really complicated, seeing as you know very little about each other in the first place, so you have to figure out your possible paths and at the same time decide upon one. Social interaction has never been so challenging as when you've got something to lose.

Compared to any other form of curiosity, the situation changes instantly once another person is added to the equation. I cannot simply decide to discover what this potential relationship will hold for me, without considering the ramifications of my actions on this person's life. And what when this person is linked to me in more ways than one? The network of people connected to the situation is often complex, and so you have more factors weighing in. What if my curiosity leads to the discomfort of others than the two of us? My relationship to a person is always somewhat made up of the network of people surrounding us and our individual relationships to each part of the network. The best example of this that I can think of is probably the most common one as well: your friend's girlfriend or boyfriend is always going to be off limits. You cannot simply let your curiosity dictate your actions, because you should respect the connection both of you have to your friend. Sometimes, however, people do find each other despite these obstacles, but then they often do that at the price of losing something. In this instance, it could lead to the loss of said friend, unless he is a character somewhat out of the ordinary. The point is, the more people that are involved and the more complex their relationships are, the more I got to consider, once I'm feeling curious.

I feel that fear of being inconsiderate is one of the few legitimate reasons for denying one's curiosity, seeing as fear of rejection, failure or injury is personal and most often something you can learn to control. Focusing on letting go of my personal qualms is a good start at least, and working on it I've found that people respond with a different energy once I focus on being open minded. Good energy has surrounded me for several weeks now, and I'm starting to think that we respond with this energy automatically when met with an energy of genuine and unrestrained interest and curiosity. Curiosity will eventually bring out every part of you, thus also the best ones, and it seems it also gives you an aura that brings out the best of everyone around you. Your ability to embrace your possibilities is at least an encouragement for those around you to do the same, or at least to embrace their own curiosity.

If they dare to force it out, I believe their personality will bloom, and that they will find tranquility. My mind is as open as ever, and I'm at least feeling quite tranquil these days.
But maybe that's just me.